tuseday and the living is easy...

wow well only 9 more days can you tell im counting down??

im trying so hard to finish this up on a positve note and feel completely compleat with what i have learnt and acknowledging the new me...

how am i doing this well to day i did a meditation with my self while lying in the mud bath here at hocienda... you can do thsi too .. as i found it amazing... I started to repeat a question to my self....

"what do i like about my self"

it was amazing what came up things i would never have thought about my self but hwen you have to ask this question over and over again the more things you have to come up with if you get stuck say the question again and trust me theer will be more! it made me feel great!! i was like wow i am all of these things... and the kicker is ppl say these thing to you every day but most the time you just shrug them off as you dont believe it your self... but when you say it to your self you relize these things are true.. as you would not lie to your self...

how ever i have been struggling as my flights have been giving me a little bit of stress as i was realy hpping to leave right after i graduate on the 19th!!! and want to get a flight out of liberia but relizing thsi might not happen has crushed me hope and set me back a little as i was realy excited to pack up and leave and head home after the course ... i feel like my time here will have come to a end and i just wanna come home and start to begin my new life style in van!!

after trying to accept that i may only be abale to get a flight out of liberia on the 22 or 23rd i read my horiscope and could not believe what it said!!! here it is.... its so true and i just had to laugh as i have been over whelmed and a littel agitated with all the flight deteails....

Gemini:
Today's Horoscope Gemini:
May 22 - June 21
Daily Lucky Number Right now, many things are not going as smoothly as you planned. Perhaps you should just accept the things you cannot change. Swallow your disappointment at the setback and concentrate on things which lie ahead. Even if it takes a little longer, you will reach your goal with enough persistence and patience.

this made me open my eyes the the univers might be telling me to relax and that this might just be a test to see how i cope with stress and the reality of life back in van... as im not even there yet but the future is already pressing my buttons... if i can see this and work on coping meconizems these two weeks ... what a gift that will be and i will be that more ready to go home....

as you see im am still learing and still processing!! bring it on!!

as i have learnt to look not only from a insode perseption but a out side one as well....

Verry cool!!!!

love you all xox M

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