today in meditation we did a different kind of practice where we went with in our self and looked at how we felt and our emotions physical and emotional. i learned a lot ive realized through this session that i avoid my own feelings and my coping mechanize is to sleep and cut my self off from other and avoid the situation. as for other i am there for them i listen and even take on their emotions and process what they are going through this is a blanket for my own emotions if i know i can help others and work thought their stuff then i dont need to work through my own.
i also have looked into my self and realized that i sleep and cut my self off because as i was a kid to deal with my parents divorce i would not show any anger or sadness towards it but rather go to my room and cry all night long in my bad then wake up and try and be there for my family rather then showing what i was going through...
there is so much here i am learning!! its amazing ... and taking time for myself to work though all of this is so great!!
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