interesting mornin for me thats for sure... i woke up at 30 am got ready for meditation and headed on up... feeling well rested i sat down in possision... little did i know my day was just about to get complicated... we started meditation with a different approach where we stand up and we speak or sing juiberish for half a hour .. last time we did this i talked quietly but this time i could only sing i sang and sang jiberish till i couldnt sing any more after a half hour we sat in a meditaion possion and were to be in this position for another half hour.. about two minutes in i started to feel my heart beating very fast and i couldnt catch my breath i lay my hanst on my heart and chest and tryed to focus on my breathing... this wasnt working as i sat there i started getting ancsous... i stood up and walked down to my cabana ... i sat on the side of my bed unable to recognize the reasoning for this .. after a minute or two it settles down and i went back up to finish the meditation.. i thought all was going good and i could enjoy the rest of my day until after beakfast i walked up to the booda hall where we have class and sat down on the couch tinking i was gonna relax. all of a sudden my heart started to pelvatate and i got short of breath.. tears started streaming down ... i sat there just letting it come ... it passed and that seemed to be all i needed as the rest of the day came smoothly. during break 2-6 i slept... i had lunch 2-3 then slepts 3-530 its was crazy, i woke up and was like holly my day is gone but it was def needed !!
now its 10:05 lights out xox M
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