rough day... beach day...

wow what a day i have had ... all day i was dreading session #3 as i find it the most difficult so far not much flow to it...this morning in class i got session #3 on myself by my partner and then tonight i had to give session #3 ... it was so brutal i had to get Elnor & Casey to put their table next to mine just so i could follow along lol... my partner told me in the end that my joint release was not great that it was all over the place and scattered but that i have a great touch when it comes to deep tissue ans when i know my moves... soo it did not turn out as bad as i thought.. going into it i was like Michaela just get it done with its only 2 hours out of your day for fuck sakes!! now i just gotta worry about tomorrow how am i gonna pull this off with my client lol.. as we get names drawn who gets to set up first to last lol.. so its not like i can make some one set up next to me..

i guess ill just have to wait and see ... as a line i heard today .." the only thing you know in life is that you never know"


i think along with all this worrying was came some emotion as i was feeling really low energy and my class mates could tell .. Beth found me in my bed after lunch and dragged me to the beach!! it was really good cuz i i could think about was studying .. and when we got back from the beach i did get time to study! so it all worked out..

another thing that happened today was ... we had a assignment! it was in our class of non violent communication...

so the assignment was to ask your self " what quality or trait do you appreciate about your self and why? " and i had nothing not one thing i could write down... then the next questions came ... "Give a example" well still had nothing to write about ... then another question... " what values or needs do you get met through this quality or trait?" and then last question "what feelings do you feel or notice? and still nothing... after this little assignment we had to get into pairs and talk about what we wrote... i sat down and said im sorry but i didnt write any thing and i showed her my page i said at this moment i just cant think of any .. thing...she sat there staring at me and then said "i feel sad that you dont see your self the same way we all see you... you have so many quality's, you like bring ppl together you have made Christmas here at hocienda del sol, you have brought us all together for dinner in Nosara( a little town 20mins away by car!) you always plan things and every one goes... every one loves being around you ... you have a quality that makes ppl want to be around you!" it was the nicest thing i had heard this hole tiem being here ... she then went on to tell me her's one of them was so simple but inspired me ... she said that she appreciates that she notices the little things in life like the way the sun glistens on the trees and the way a car feels when it comes off a dirt road and onto pavement...it was amazing..

i need to start looking at life this way sorry not need i am going to start looking at life this way as today instead of moping in bed i went to the beach and had a blast playing in the waves and taking pictures.. life can be such a simple beauty!

well im gonna leave you with that ...

love you lots xox M