lol... wow i have not snapped since elementary school... i donno all day i was feeling like i just wanted space and to be alone then i went to class tonight and we were learning new moves.. i was feeling like i just was not getting any of them and could not get confident in one. As my frustration was building the teachers would come around at try and give tips... well all three teachers had come over to Casey and i and a teacher came over one last time and i was already, ready to loose it as all of them had different ways of showing moves and i wanted one way how to know a move and just let me get comfortable with it! well poor brandy cuz she came over and was like this is how i do it.. and all i said was look im getting really frustrated you all keep coming over here and showing me different ways to do a move ! and i don't get it at all ... she knew right away i was pissed and one other teacher didn't make his way over to our table for the rest of the night.. 9pm came the end of class and i could not stick around i just wanted to leave i came to my cabana and threw on my PJ'S and thought how i needed to write about this ;)
cuz im just so mad that they are all showing different ways when i cant even get it right the first way i was shone!
anyways i know that i have to use my break tomorrow to practice ... fucking sux lol..
ok well night for now as i have to be up at 6am for winter solstice tomorrow we will be letting go of all the unwanted things we want in our lives by writing on leaves and letting them go down a creek!
maybe this will let me blow off some steam..
love you all xox M
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