we have all been assigned new partners for ten sessions.. my partner is Naudia she is a women who lives in costa rica very free and beautiful. only thing is were definitely seeing eye to eye .. witch is not good ... ive kinda felt attached as we had a circle after our first session together... while we had our session she told me every thing was great that i could maybe try and use a little more pressure but that my touch was very nice and that she knew i would be a great body worker! then as we got into circle the next day she completely called me out in front of every one and dropped a bomb... she said "well michaela is my partner and she falls asleep and then doesnt give feed back ... i know im not a professional so it would be nice to get feed back form michaela as all she say's is yeah it felt great. " then she went on to say that " michaela when she gave to me it was not smoothed she didnt follow the book and well we will see what happens next time" I was so pissed as she held all this back till circle how come she could not say this to my face and why has every one elts i have worked on said i was great with the deep tissue and that i look confident so this hole thing with Naudia has realy thrown me off... then after this we had our first clients for deep tissue and i felt realy good with it i felt confident and that i knew all my moves and when i asked the teachers they said i was doing this right ... so im feeling very confused and need to talk to naudia about the situation and to be strait up with me ... and ask what is bothering her. but i have to wait as i do not wanna bring it up right now as tonigt naudia is throwing this party for a women here who is turning 50 !! and i would not want this to get in the way of that.
its funny though cuz with all this going on i have so much support from every one and they all realize where im coming from and are listening to me and give great advice . i feel so loved and excepted form every one here and a really strong bond with every one .. i feel like i could go to any one here with a problem or situation and they would all be there for me in a loving way ! what a gift that is!
Naudia is the women in the picture with her back to you...
then i struggle with the not knowing .... i wanna plan what i wanna do after this course as we only have 5 weeks left... do i stay or do i go ... i have this plan in my head to go home work part time at loulou lemon and then work up my clientele and practice my re balancing body work...but then im here in costa rica no commitments to go home too .. when in your life do you ever get that gift... so why not stay here ... and then i fight with the unknowing of what is here and what about my money situation...
its all in trusting your self ... in this case my self that very thing happens for a reason and life will lead me where i have to go!
well time to have a shower and start my day xox
Michaela
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